Impromptu Hiatus

So sorry, I had an impromptu hiatus from all things that are technology! I know scary right. I haven't gone that long without using a computer or phone. Well I lie, I had my phone. Just went up north for a little relaxation. Anywho, I quickly updated the music, to make up for the missing blink songs. Off to do a few things, be back in a jiff.

30 Days of Blink

So the countdown has begun. It is officially, 1 the first day of the Blink tour and 30 days until I get to see them! WOOOO HOOOO! So to countdown, each day leading up to it I will have a different tune playing!

First up, the ever classic hit, What's My Age Again?, the best version is live from the Mark Tom and Travis Show.


Night all.

This Womans Work

Oh my fucking god. Did anyone see So You Think You Can Dance tonight?! The piece by Tyse Diorio (will check spelling later), preformed by Ade and Melissa, about breast cancer, WOW. I have never been so emotionally moved by dance before and that was beyond incredible. I knew from the first note of the music (being a huge She's having a baby fan) that I was in for it, and having a breast cancer scare myself. Holy crap. I cried like a baby. I don't know when the last time a minute and a half moved me so much. Wow. Amazing. Utterly amazing. If you didn't watch it or haven't or don't even watch the show at all, I reccommend atleast checking out that clip. It was incredible, and moving. And I don't know a soul who wouldn't feel something after seeing that.

Off to go run now. Be back shortly.
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OPPS!

Forgot to change my songs once again. OPPS! I won't be doing the songs next week, I've got something special cooked up for the next month! OHHHHH anticipation!

Peace Out Homies.

It Might Kill Me

Hello, tell me you know, yeah, you've figured me out
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment to see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now
And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
'Cause you and I, why we go carrying on for hours on end
We get along much better than you and your boyfriend

Well, all I really want to do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me,
if it kills me.

Well, how long can I go on like this, wishing to kiss you
Before I rightly explode
And this double life I lead isn't healthy for me in fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all
Well, baby there's a lot that I miss in case I'm wrong

All I really want to do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still cant say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me,
if it kills me

If I should be so bold, I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said a word I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

Well, all I really want to do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me,
if it kills me
I think it might kill me
And all I really want from you is to feel me
It's a feeling inside that keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me,
if it kills me

It might kill me.


Thank u Mr. Mraz.
Can't get this song out of my head since SYTYCD.

Sweet dreams loves.
J.Leigh
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Random thought

When walking around in the pitch black , before your eyes adjust, do you ever find yourself closing your eyes and maneuvering around better?!
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Is blood really thicker than water?

So awhile ago I blogged about my family. I don't believe I mentioned exactly why I'm so passionate about my family. My real father disowned me. That's basically the jist of it. There was no good reason, in fact I did nothing wrong. He cheated on my mother for the entire 15 year marriage they had, and my mom finally called it quits. I always hated him, he treated me like shit, but I chalked it up to kids hate their dads. He's a very controlling man, and once word came out that he cheated on my mom, any power he had over me went flying out the window. For the first time I could stand up to him, because I knew what a piece of shit he was. Well to make a long story short, he basically told his entire side of the family that if anyone had any contact with me or my mother he wouldn't allow them to see my lil brother or sister. It worked. Now I don't 100% blame him, I blame that family just as much. Because honestly, who would really just stop talking to an innocent 15 year old. Cut to 10 years later, I haven't had any contact with any of the adults. Nor has a single one tried, including my grandparents. You are probably saying to yourself, damn this girl must have really done something to have all those people stop talking to her. I am being honest that I did nothing. My step father, whom I refer to as my dad, thought the same thing when he first started dating my mother. He thought we were just angry bitches, mad about him cheating. After getting to see first hand how he treated me, or lack there of, he quickly realized it wasn't just us being angry bitches. He now can't even mention my biological father without ending up upset and swearing. I find it cute. I'm sick and twisted what can I say. I always wanted to be a daddy's girl and now I am. So in the past year or so, I've had every single cousin find me on facebook or myspace. Its weird to me, because I was the oldest in that family, by many years, so thinking that they would remember me just blows my mind. I recently, a few days ago and today, had the last two find me on facebook. They are brother and sister, and the last time I saw them they were a baby and about 4 years old. There is no way on earth they remember me. The youngest posted on my wall saying that of course she remembers me her dad talks about me all the time. Now I have no problem with the kids talking about me, they were innocent in all of this, its hard to defy your parents, this I know, but god it makes me so mad hearing that the adults are talking about me. It infuriates me. I don't want them talking bad about me because they don't know what I had to go through. And I don't want them talking good about me because they treated me like I didn't exist, they don't get the privilege to say nice things about me. If they are going to act like I don't exist for 10 years then god dammit don't speak about me to anyone. I'm entitled to hating the adults. They should know better. They should know not to treat a 15 year old like she is an awful human being. I never want anything to do with them ever again. I have a family and they will never be a part of it. But as for my cousins, its so hard to let them be a part of my life, since they are mostly still in high school and younger, and can't visit without parental knowledge. But they don't deserve me to shut them out either. The older of the two ,was im'ing me today about his father. (His father is also a piece of shit, beyond me just hating him). The poor kid is going through something similar that I did. His dad emotionally abused him, is what he told me, and he doesn't live with him anymore. It just broke my heart. Here I am getting a little creeped out that this cousin whom I haven't seen or spoken to in 10 years is obsessively talking to me, and then find out he's just reaching out to someone to talk to them. Someone that can understand what its like to be apart of that family. And having a kid who is going into high school this year, tell me that when he has kids he doesn't want to be anything like his dad, and that we have to work hard to make sure our children aren't put into the same cycle.... he wise beyond his years. It makes me wonder that as I grow, am I going to become in touch with that side of the family again? I never will see the adults, but the cousins. I never dreamed that I would have 2 sides of my own family, not for the past 10 years. But its like a glimmer of hope. Family means so much to me. And to have joint custody of my cousins would be amazing. So is blood really thicker than water? Will I always have a connection with that side of my blood, even though I've tried so hard to not think of them? I guess time will tell.


Hopeful.

Half Blood Prince

A-MAZ-ING. Yes said in 3 syllables. Obviously I have a biased view, since I'm am utterly in love with anything Harry Potter, but I really REALLY liked this movie. I saw it at midnight as planned. What was unreal, was how many theaters just at the place where i saw it, they were showing the film. I believe all 20. It was a MADHOUSE! Even better, my lil sis and her friend and I managed to be first in line for our theater. So we had the most perfect seats in the world. Now I'm going to start talking about the movie so SPOILER ALERT for those who haven't seen it, or those who haven't seen it and haven't read the books. I laughed my ass off, I cried, I jumped, almost screamed, and just thoroughly enjoyed myself. Now I heard a lot of mixed reviews from friends, and I'm not even going to read anything the media has to say about it. But here is my take. I heard a lot of people not like the fact that it wasn't dark. Not me. I loved the fact that they focused on the relationships, and showed that they are growing up and that at the end of the day they are just kids. Kids having to deal with things kids shouldn't have to. Because the next two movies are going to far more dark and the kids are going to become adults. Its also going to make the viewer care more when Voldemort and crew starts picking off all of Harry's loved ones. The only thing I wished they did more of was show how many more trips Harry and Dumbledore took together. This was the first time I ever liked this actor as Dumbledore, the first one, Richard Harris, will always have my heart. I loved the fact that they used so much humor as well. The books always have humor in it, but the movies rarely show it, just making Ron do something stupid to add the comical aspect in there. I love love LOVED it. Beyond loving the movie, I loved the special effects and the cinematography, and above all the acting. UGH, and Helena Bonham Carter... I think I worship her. I absolutely adore everything she does. And as Bellatrix, GENIUS! Seriously she is such a great actor, and there isn't another actor out there that could have done this role justice. Perfection. And Ron, did anyone notice that he is borderline ripped?! Ummmmm HELLO?! And I can say that and not feel creepy pedophile-y because he is 20. Yet another shocker for me. I can't believe that he is 20! I was discussing the movies with a good friend of mine and he said that he feels like we watched them all grow up. We kind of really did. Seriously go look back at how young Harry looks in the first movie, its absolutely CRAZY. Another thing that my friend and I talked about was the fact that we wish the movies were set in real time, because a couple hours just doesn't cut it. Another thing... I had no CLUE this movie was 2 hours and 45 minutes. Going to be at 3 am on a Tuesday isn't the greatest idea. But it was definitely well worth it. What I would give to be J.K. Rowling, that woman is just rolling in it. How great for her though, being a single mother, to writing books that will continue to sell long after she is not around anymore, and movies that grossed over 4.5 billion dollars worldwide. Holy crap. When is it my turn.

In love with Harry Potter.

SYTYCD

Janine and Jason's routine was so fantasticly amazing it was ridiculous. By far my favorite routine of the entire season! OMG! OMG! I will try to find the video and post it ASAP!

Wooooo!!!

Definantly in my seat to see Harry Potter and the 1/2 Blood Prince!!!! Ahhhhhhh!!! Soooooo excited!!!!
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The Eve of HP

So its the night before the 6th Harry Potter Movie comes out, well the night before the midnight showing that is. Being thrilled is a understatement. Harry Potter holds a special place in my heart. I read these books LONG before they were a craze. But they brought me back to reading. School had done a number on reading for me, it made me hate it. I always hated English, I was good, but I loathed it. I perceive things quite differently from other people. My friends constantly make fun of me for watching something as mundane as a commercial with them, and getting something completely different out of it then every single person in the room. I often pay attention to music instead of words and then have no clue what I was watching was actually about. So reading in school, where you are forced to accept certain "answers" and forced to highlight certain parts as being important or pivotal, I quickly started hating reading. I survived highschool english on cliff notes and sparknotes. I'm also stubborn so I don't like to be told what to do. But beyond that, when I read, I like to make my own judgements about everything. To me books are like art, they are put out there for individuals to judge, and unless the author is present in those English classes, no teacher is going to tell me what means what. Books should be respected and cherished, no broken apart by grade school English teachers, no matter their qualifications. Let children learn to love to read, then start debating meanings. I don't think anything should be set in stone, as this is this, period the end. Holy poo did I go off on a tangent. Back to HP. Anyway, HP got me reading again. I loved it. It instantly sucked me in, and I've been hooked ever since. They are also the first books that I have been able to re-read. And I've done that quite often, I love them that much. I am so excited for tomorrow, but a little nervous, I know (SPOILER ALERT) Dumbledore dies, and I wept like a baby then refused to actually believe it until book 7 was completely read, but I'm afraid on how bad I'll cry in the theater. I've become a sap with old age, and I cry at commercials. But I have a daddy issue, and Dumbledore was like a dad to Harry, so I should just pack a few tissues and not wear mascara. Ohhhhh lord. I just hate going to bed after I cry cuz I end up with super huge puffy swollen eyes. Oh well its the price you pay for things you love. I'll update on how the movie was Wednesday.

Wingardium Leviosa.

birdzNbeez

This weekend is my towns annual "Art in the Park", a little art fair. Well actually its not so little. I've never been before so I was a virgin to the whole scene. I was amazed at how HUGE it was. Anywho we walked around for like 4 hours marveling at all the amazing stuff, and giggling at some of the cheesy not so amazing stuff that was there. But I did stumble upon an amazing little booth. We had walked by it a few times, and decided to make a pass down its row again to listen to the reggae band again. But then we finally decided to take a look, and found the most amazing necklaces. (I'm super in to necklaces at the moment) They are just gorgeous and if I was rich I would have bought every single one. In fact, I'm having the opposite of buyer's remorse, I'm having, didn't buy enough remorse. We are planning to go again and I will stop by and pick up another peice tomorrow! Anywho the maker's name is Susan Scherer and she has her stuff up on the internet as well, seriously you must go take a look. She calls the necklaces Antique watchworks jewelry. She has lockets and these peices that look like broken down insides of old watches, but makes them absolutely beautiful. I picked out a few of my favorite and posted them below. But check them out on her website birdzNbeez or go to http://www.birdznbeez.etsy.com/

Wakeboarding

Went wakeboarding just before sunset. AMAZING!

What a beautiful night!

Doggy Play Date

Meet: Chief. My baby, he's been featured before, but I heart him so here he is again
2 1/2 year old Chocolate Lab.


Meet: Tucker. My step dog
1 year old English Bulldog



It was a glorious sunny day so my lil bro and sis and I decided our dogs should get together and play. So we picked up Tucker for a play date and took him to the park with us. Then we ventured down to Petco, it is where the pets go, to get Chiefy a new "baby" (aka stuffed animal).
Here some pics from our doggy play date.

The car ride proved to be a little too exciting for Tucker, who insisted on attacking me with kisses while I was driving.

Best face of the day. He was a little put off to not be allowed in the front, so rested his face on the seat.

Finally made it to the park. They are either awaiting a treat or me to throw a ball.

We even accomplished getting my bro exercise. Tucker is just not as fast, he's bringing up the rear.


Begging for cookies. Chiefy was a good boy and listened before he got his treat.


Hot dogs!


There is something about the crack between the 2 front seats, dogs just LOVE it. Fighting over better position.



After Petco, the boys got baths. Tucker was stinky, and by the frown on his face, he was not enjoying bath time.

The cute puppy dogs are BFF's now!

Wagging Tails.

Music Music Music

In honor of one of my favorite cult classic movies, which I happen to be watching right now... Empire Records. I don't care what anyone says this movie is amazing. I love that Liv Tyler and Renee Zellweger are in it. Ahhhh it makes me laugh and I love LOVE it!

I'm not going to break it down by artist this time because they are pretty old songs and artists. Next week back to the old grind. I also wasn't ready to completely let go of MJ, so he's got a guest spot.

Say no more, mon amour.

AHHHHH!

New Tunes tomorrow I promise. After the memorial today, I didn't have the heart to change them up.

Forever Missed

Great Memorial. Paris brought waterworks to my eyes. Thank you for blessing the world.

Mournfully.

He's Just Not That Into You

...The Story of my life.

Anywho, watched this movie with my little sister. I heard mixed reviews, but we were in a chick flick mood, so we rented it anyway. First off, OMG sooooo embarassing. I kept wanting to fast forward through all of Ginnifer Goodwin's parts. AHHHHHH! But all in all we really liked this movie. I've decided its definantly based on my friends. Like we are all like that. And god its so true all the stuff we say to each other and why we can't just go... ehhh he's just not that into you. I'd consider it, but I know I'd get bitch slapped by one of my friends. Hahahaha! Favorite part of the movie was when (SPOILER ALERT) Ben Affleck proposed to Jennifer Aniston. OMG. SOOOOO AMAZING! I want that.

Longingly.

I Heart Fireworks!

Its amazing that my Crackberry, Jameson, can take such amazing photos of fireworks. Continuing to celebrate the 4th, with some, which seemed like a private display, of fireworks and a party tonight, which was complete with a steel drum band, and then going boating at the booty crack of dawn tomorrow. Wakeboarding! Wooooo! Anywho, must go get some sleep so I can get up on time!

ps. I am having a really weird phenomenon going on. My feet are swelling and I don't know why. Its absolutely ridiculous and i just laugh super hard at them. I don't know what is going on. Its happened 2ce now. They are sooooooo huge. And then they start to hurt. HELP! Any suggestions on what is going on. And no I'm not preggo!


Nighty Night,

Movie Review

Last night I watched the movie Gran Torino last night. Again I apologize for being slow on the uptake, usually I've seen all the Oscar nominated movies WELL before the Oscars. Especially with this one being filmed in Detroit, you would have thought I saw it. Anyway, it was a great movie. It really made you think about racism and the effects it still has today. But also shows that anyone can change their views, even an old crotchety man that has been racist all of his life. It was great. I love Clint's role and how he played it, he was so cynical and still stuck to his guns on his racist terms towards his new friends, but they gave it right back to him. It was like they realized he was being ignorant and saw right through it, saw that he really was a good man. It was a truly good movie. I forget what it was nominated for but if it wasn't nominated for best film it should have been, considering The Reader was nominated (I absolutely detest this movie and will not get into at this moment)

Speaking of the Oscars, word on the street they are going back to nominating like 12 flicks for best movie, instead of just a few that no one really likes. That makes momma happy! I feel like I should just chose all of the movies and the winners, hehehehehe! In a perfect world...

Tonight I watched local fireworks from my roof. Yes literally climbed up on one tier of our roof, got a ladder and went to the top tier. It was pretty sweet. Tomorrow shall be spent boating and drinking and havin fun. I made some awesome White Wine Peach Sangria for the festivities and it is AMAZING!!!!! I wish everyone a fun and fantastic Fourth of July! Eat, drink, and be merry!

Happy Independence.